On My Own
Posted by: katzcen on: February 4, 2010
Tonight it feels like I’ve come to another loop. Somehow we do go circles. We meet the same people and do the same things again after a certain period of time. Maybe life’s like a merry-go-round, or a little chess board.
Tonight I encouraged someone to propose to the girl of his life. It feels that I’ve come out of some confusion. Certain things become clearer, certain knots become straightened. It’s like realising what reality is like. You do give up certain things in order to settle for the best options. Where is that passion? What’s left after so many years of compromising to what reality has to offer? I do not want to settle, it just don’t feel right.
So stop asking, I am still waiting for that right one. Maybe it’s passed, maybe it will never come. It could only be in my head. I do not know what I want. So I am keeping it this way.
Sometimes I really wish I could say the words that I mean.
I Think It’s Only Temporal. It is Bliss.
Posted by: katzcen on: February 3, 2010
Chemistry in our Society got me v v sleepy..so I ran away half way.
A lazy afternoon it is, basking in warm and fuzzy sunlight, with Miss Underwater playing over and over again on my itunes.
Another hydrous love song..
2046
Posted by: katzcen on: January 27, 2010
We have reached the point in time which we are able to break the time-space continuum. Within this space, time stops and sequence of events happening in our lives reshuffle. There’s no tomorrow, but only past memories from the day of today. You can always go back to the past as a third person looking back or go back as a first person reliving it. Your actions may or may not change the actual outcomes that is happening outside of this time warp. However, no one is trully brave enough to change things there and leave it. Outside this warp reality continues. Everything remains in its normal state, only that it is becoming less and less appealing.
It is like a black hole, sucking everyone with their hidden agendas & intentions to go back to the past. People go to this kink in the universe to seek solace and to run from the reality they have to face back home. Most people are continuously trapped in it, unwilling to leave, some relive their past traumas and are devoured by the pain. Only a few is able to let it all go and escape it.
Yet, would you have chosen to go too if given the chance?
It’s Awfully Too Quiet Here..
Posted by: katzcen on: January 19, 2010
I don’t think I am gonna do much about it now.
The Answer is..
Posted by: katzcen on: December 23, 2009
今を生きろ。
To seize the day or live in the now.
生きろ-Angel in Exile
Have FAITH.
Questions
Posted by: katzcen on: December 17, 2009
To think of passion, how much do we really have? Through the years we live as who we are suppose to be, but hardly who we really are or want to be. How much do we really appreciate the present? What will it be like if you are given the chance to go back to a certain point in life when a major decision was made and you could go the other way?
How much do we really enjoy who we are now?
Overflow
Posted by: katzcen on: December 14, 2009
It’s been too much things happening that I have no time to catch up with things, haven’t even touch my fyp for at least a week now. Well, it’s way too happening, but in a really fun or I shall say, interesting way. Tonnes of pictures from present and past, trip to KL, Zoukout, and the hospital trip made on an umbulance after my unfortunate friend suffered from food poisoning.
I guess there will be plenty of updates soon. I hope.
Of Beginnings and Endings or Never-endings
Posted by: katzcen on: December 4, 2009
Met up with an old friend today. It seems that every time I catch up with someone it is like time had flown past very quickly. People fell in love, people fell out of love. People came and people went. But I am still here, at the same place. Stuck and unchanging. Is there something wrong with me? Suddenly it makes me feel old, as if I am a wise person who have seen many many things and experienced a lot. Usually there are the things that I got from others.
And I finally got to watch Before Sunset, after watching Before Sunrise a long long time ago. Somehow it always stirs up a lot of sentimental feelings. The lines between the two characters flow so smoothly and every word seems like a note that strike a nerve in me. It’s euphoric, yet painful.
Celine: “I am just not that kind of person who can move on with a *flicks finger*.”
This is what is on endless loop in my itunes.
“I try so hard not to notice,
I try so hard no to care,
I try so hard not to know that you are not here.
But I am counting down the hours,
and I am counting up the days,
I try so hard not to show this side of me.”
Let’s Swim
Posted by: katzcen on: December 4, 2009
I asked for water ballet..if it is what it should be called.
During Endless Presentations…
Posted by: katzcen on: November 30, 2009
Right now I am in the middle of the FYP final presentation for this semester, and unfortunately I am the last one to present. But there’re always something to look forward to. For example, I’m going to swim later no matter what, even though I only slept for 2 hours last night, or more precisely today morning. And there is the ADM End of Semester party with free-flow of Ben n Jerry icecreams and hotdogs! What’s the relation between these two I don’t know but as long as it’s free why not?! I am also going to meet up XZ to have some time out on the beach, with the promise of tasting the fried-rice cooked by her. There are also events that I am going to organise with my darlings and the to be planned field trips to Malaysia!
Today, is the LAST day of school, at least for now!!
After today, it is detox, regular eat, sleep & exercise time!
And now, something to make myself happy…TEH QTE!
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